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I've got lots to share, and nothing to share...........there is too much distance between us now and Livejournal is pretty much dead for me.  I don't know if I will ever come back........"never" is a long time.  So I'll leave it open ended and simply come back if/when it feels right.



Chakras
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Life After Trump Victory

Dear Ones,

I'm just now getting over being stunned by the results of the presidential election in the United States.  For the third time in my life, I am ashamed of being an American.  (Sorry if that offends some readers, but it truly is a fearful thing to me that this man is going to be the next president.)  I will just leave it at that.

On other fronts,  I seem to be in a season of making new friends, and that feels very good, indeed.  Dave (Not to be confused with my longtime friend "David") is relatively new to the island.  He's an American  who was here forty years ago when he was in the Peace Corpe.  He met and married a Filipino back then and then moved back to the States, where they have lived for the past 38 years.  Now that their children are all grown and on their own, and Dave has retired, they decided to spend their retirement years here.  Rebecca, Dave's wife,  is a wonderful woman, and I have a sense that we are going to be good friends.  Now my every-other Wednesday foot massage afternoon includes lunch at the "Shack" with both Puri and  Rebecca.  What fun to have a ladies afternoon out!

Last month I invited the five expats living on the island who I knew about to my home so that we could get to know one another.  This week we had our second meeting, and I think we may just become a rather good group together.  Bjorg owns two boats and goes to Bohol Island twice a month so that he can take advantage of the much lower prices at "The Market".  One of his boats seats about 20, so he has invited any of us who would like to make this trip to go along as his guest on his boat.  He typically leaves at 8:00 in the morning and is back by mid-afternoon.  It's a bit over an hour boat ride to Bohol.  So, I plan to go in January and am looking forward to it very much.  Depending upon what I find at the market, I may just make this a monthly event!

Not much else is going on.....but I thought I might at least check in before the month ends.

May We All Be Abundantly Blessed,

An Evolving Interspiritual Solitary

Old Woman Screaming
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I AM SO FRUSTRATED!

Dear Ones,

I find myself mostly disappointed when I visit my LJ page.  Sometimes I feel like I'm setting myself up for disappointment just by going onto it.  Yikes!!

Part of me is so tempted to just throw up my hands and say "Fuck it.  I'm just going to make a clean break."

But there is still that  part me that holds out hope.

Most of the time, I don't even want to write on LJ anymore.......SO.....I'm not even going to try to come on here once or twice a week to "catch up" with good friends.  They have either already left LJ permanently or, like me.......hang on with a lot fewer entries.....and those are a whole lot less personal as well.....which makes for some very sad feelings when I read them.........SO.......I'll  not just drop off completely, nor will I make grand efforts to get on here often.  I'm just going to hang out on the sidelines and see what happens.

How sad.............how very sad.  I have lost an online community that was once so very dear to me.  But......life happens...er?

An Evolving Interspiritual Solitary

Wisdom
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NaNoWriMo Starts Soon

It is all blessing


Dear Ones,

My nose has been just a tad out of joint lately, so I chose not to write in Livejournal until I could at least get myself turned around enough not to make a fool out of myself.    Here's hoping.

I've decided to participate in NaNoWriMo next month.  I want to get that book on Eldering written, and when I did NoNoWriMo three years ago, I was able to accomplish my goal.  So.....here's hoping.  I do plan to give it my best effort.   My book is not a novel, but I'm using their challenge; I don't suppose the NoNoWriMo police will be after me for that.  :o)

Quite honestly, I really don't have anything else I want to share today.  I guess my nose isn't quite back in joint yet.......so.......

May We All Be Abundantly Blessed,

An Evolving Interspiritual Solitary
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Chakras
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Busy, Busy, Busy.....

It is all blessing

Dear Ones,

It's been a very busy week.

MONDAY..... I bit the bullet and have asked Abelle to accompany me on the two big days of errands and shopping I do each month.  So, on Monday, she and I went for a day in Lapu-Lapu: banking, pharmacy, brunch, grocery shopping and looking at movies.  This was a relatively light day, but it was good to have her with me.  I used a wheel chair at the supermarket, and this saved my hide enough that I have the energy to start a beef stew that would be in the slow cooker overnight and make a cheesecake.  If I had gone alone, I would not have been able to do much of anything once I got home.

TUESDAY......new friends, Kun and Karen came for lunch.  He's from Belgium and she's a local.  We had a grand time, and this was the first time I had used beer to make beef stew.  I gotta say, it was the best beef stew I have ever had!  And the cheesecake was pretty darned good too!  :o)  The meal was rounded out with a salad made from fresh spinach, apples, blue cheese and pecans all topped with a homemade raspberry vinaigrette.  Oh, and I made a fresh loaf of rye bread to go with the stew and salad.

WEDNESDAY....... I was home all day, mostly waiting for the appliance repairman to come to look at my refrigerator.  He finally showed up at 2:00. The good news is that  the refrigerator can be fixed, and he will be coming back to take care of the problems, and then I will have two refrigerators again.

THURSDAY.....Abelle and I set off for another day of errands and shopping;  this time in Cebu.  So we stopped at the bank first and then headed to Park Mall where I got Sophie's flea and tic stuff and her worming pills.  The place that sells my favorite licorice still had it on sale "2 for the price of one", so I got two more.  Yippee!   We also stopped at my favorite sort-of-Dollar-Store where I got another trash can and a plastic bin to hold sewing supplies.  Then we headed to SM Mall, where I visited the eye clinic to talk with the doctor there about this blasted eye infection.  I also stopped by the used bookstore and got three more paperbacks and three magazines.  The magazines are older ones, but who cares....right?  I got a copy of a Budget Decorating magazine,  a Family Circle that seemed to have lots of great recipes, and a copy of "O Magazine".  I would have gotten at least one more "O Magazine" but they only had the one. I do love Oprah!   Anyway, the magazines and three books came to under $8.  What a bargain.

Finally we headed to Ayala Mall where we had lunch at Burger King and then did the grocery shopping at my favorite supermarket.  Again, I used a wheelchair in the supermarket, and this gave me energy to get home without feeling like I had been through the ringer.  It's all about conserving energy.

I'm home for today and tomorrow, and will go back to Lapu Lapu on Sunday to meet Dane and Stuart for lunch.  I'm thinking I'll go in early so that I can get a chair massage and enjoy a cafe latte before meeting them.

So, it's been a busy week, but a good one as well.  The rest of the month will be much more quiet, which is good because I want to finish that second owl painting and paint a few pots so that they will be ready for new plants.  I'm hoping to have a rather full and lovely container garden at my bay window in the living room by Christmas.

Oh.......and, I also found out that I can get sewing lessons at the sewing school here on the island for 300 pesos (about $7).....not per lesson....but for as many lessons as it takes to get my proficient in what I want to learn.  Sewing patterns are not available here, and I have pictures of a few things I would like to add to my wardrobe.  They will teach me how to make my own patterns so that I can make these things.  Yippee!  I've told Abelle that I will pay for her to have lessons as well.  At that price, I can afford to be generous to the woman who makes my life so much easier.

I have lived on this island for more than five years now, and it is only recently that I am feeling at home here.....like I belong here.....like I actually "fit" here.  And that's a good feeling to have.....a real blessing.

May We All Be Abundantly Blessed,

An Evolving Interspiritual Solitary

Smiling Horse
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY FRENCH RHUBARB!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!


:O)

Smiling Horse
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Butterflies and BB Boxes

It is all blessing


Dear Ones,

I've gotten two more of those throw pillows done.......my first two cross stitch pieces...the butterflies......  Here they are......



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So, the couch with all the new pillows.............looks like this..........
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Of course, the Halloween pillows will go into a storage bin during the first week of November, but soon after, the new Christmas pillows will make their debut!  I finished one yesterday and plan to finish the second one tomorrow.  So stay tuned for more pictures!  :o)
I got an email from my son telling me that he had sent out the "BB Box".  If I've not told you about BB Boxes before, do let me share now.  For those of us living in the Philippines, they are as close to Santa coming down a chimney as we're going to get here in the tropics!   Those friends and family members living in another country can send lots of stuff to us, and the cost of sending it is NOT based on weight, but on volume.   So, for instance, about once a year, my son calls a number and someone delivers the size box he as specified.  They cost from $25 for a relatively small box, to just over $100 for somthing about the dimension and height of a card table.   My son pays for the box when it is delivered empty.  He then takes as long as he likes to fill it.  His wife's family is Filipino and lives in Lapu-Lapu.  So Mary Ann spends the year going to the Salvation Army and getting clothes for her parents and siblings; she gets nonperishable food stuff at the supermarket, and any gadgets she sees that she thinks her family may like.  They include gifts for me in these boxes as well, and Mary Ann's brother or sister just calls me when it arrives and I take the boat over to meet them to pick up what Matthew has sent to me.  This year, Matthew asked me for a list of things I would like, and that list included things like rennet tablets so that I could make fresh cheese; shampoo that keeps silver hair from turning yellow;  both raspberry and black licorice "twizzles", as well as black licorice "bridge mix";  boxes of salted codfish so that I can make a couple of recipes from my childhood; canned fava beans; acrylic paints; and a few other things.  The HUGE surprise is that he has sent me a laptop computer!!!  Once they are ready to send that filled box, they call the number again and someone comes to their house to pick it up.  They never have to schlep a thing!   It takes three months for a BB Box to make it around the world because it is sent by freighter, but that method sure saves a bundle and, as I said, weight is not an issue, just volume.  So, with any luck, that box will get here just about Christmas week.  I am psyched!  Already I am in high anticipation of Christmas.   Unfortunately, those BB Boxes aren't available to be sent from the Philippines, only to the Philippines.  But then there's not much available here that can't be bought in the States.

A friend in Maine is consolidating all of her belongings from four houses and three office buildings and will be sending me a BB Box fill of books, DVD's and CD's that she was planning to just donate to some charity.  I have no idea when that box will be sent, probably some time after the winter  holidays, but then I'll be having another Santa's visit!

Live continues to sort of just roll along......one day following another.  Some days I feel like doing a great deal.  Other days?  Oh well.......  But that's life on the slow lane of retirement, which has its advantages, for sure.  When I stop and think about it, there's an awful lot of blessings in my life.

May We All Be Abundantly Blessed,

An Evolving Interspiritual Solitary

Angel
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Starting To Get Decked Out For All Hallows Eve

It is all blessing


Dear Ones,

I've been busy!   I borrowed a friend's sewing machine yesterday and made up the two throw pillows for Halloween this morning.......


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and......



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I'm quite happy with them.  Tomorrow I will make up the two butterfly cross stitch throw pillows, and at the end of the week, the Christmas ones.  Then all sx pillows wll be done and I can finish up the Christmas stockings I has mostly made up last year and send them out to my son and his family in plenty of time for Christmas.

Next week I plan to make up the caftan for which I had purchased fabric quite a while back.  I also have a  good deal of muslin left and think I will try my hand at making a pair of comfortable, loose-fitting slacks.

I've also started a second owl painting on canvas.  This one is going to be a bit of a stretch for me......but I'm enjoying the process so far. And, I can always paint over it if I don't like the finished product.  I've done that once before.  My first owl painting is done over an earlier painting I rejected in short order.

We have been getting good internet connection for the past three days.  Perhaps the constant interference from the atmosphere has finished.  I think typhoon season is just about over for the year.  It has been awful not to have good, and sometimes no, internet for about six weeks now.  Ugh!!

Early this month I purchased seven books at the used bookstore.....all novels with mages, wizards and dragons.  One was just over 1,000 pages long.  I have two very thin books left to last me the next two weeks or so, but I have enough other projects going that I think I may be able to stretch those two books out.  For some reason,  I've really gotten into reading a good deal over these past two or three months.  Next month, I plan to get eight books!

As I have continued to ponder over how I am to best spend these last years of my life,  I have come up with three major focus:

First:  I remembered the old Proverb that "To Everything Is A Season".  I certainly have had my "season" of working hard and raising a son as a single parent.  I've worked since I was about sixteen years old, and often had neither the time nor enegy to be involved with those pass-times that I enjoy.  So, now is that time for me......time to paint and draw;  sew and do cross stitch;  read as many books and watch as many movies as I like;  cook and bake as much as I like;  visit with friends; and simply enjoy life's little pleasures.

Second:  I believe that we continue to grow, even after we have shed this earthly body.  But my belief is that many are confused, scared and unable to move ahead after death because they cannot reconcile what they thought would happen at death with what actually happens. (Not that I have the corner on the market of that understanding myself).  So.....through meditation, reading and simply seeking to be open,  I choose to prepare for my own death by seeking to be as open to the possibilities as I possibly can so that I have a better chance of not getting caught up in fear or in digging my heels in because it isn't unfolding as I expected it might.

Third.  I've noticed that, about once a year,  I have a great idea for a book.  Sometimes I have gone ahead and started that book.  Two have even been written in their first draft.  They are raw, but the meat is there.  Over these past two months, and idea for yet another book has come to me: one on "Eldering".   I see these ideas as gifts, and feel somewhat shamed that I have not accepted them with gratitude.  So.....I have started to write this book on "Eldering".  I hope to be able to get through the fear of failure enough to be able to complete it, edit it and get it off to be published.   I pray I can keep my resolve.

So.....that is what is going on just now, and it all feels good......and it all feels like blessing.......and I am grateful.

May We All Be Abundantly Blessed,

An Evolving Interspiritual Solitary

Candles
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Catching Up

It Is All Blessing

Dear Ones,

Finally......I'm having some luck with the Internet!  It seems we have been having one typhoon after another for weeks, though most of them have been far enough away from Olango Island that the worst we have experienced is winds and heavy rains.  It's been quite something.  I'm just grateful that there has been no damage, that the repairs on my roof have kept rain from dripping through, and the worst of it has simply been a few rough rides across the channel.  Those can be quite frightening.

All is well.  I've had a bit of a pity party over the past few weeks, but I think it is finally over, at least for now.  Sometimes I forget just how many blessings there are in my daily life.

Sophie is turning into a couch potato, and her Vet tells me that this is quite age appropriate.  She has developed what seems to be an allergy for chicken, so no more of that for her.  I know she misses it, especially when I'm eating chicken and don't share it with her....not even the bones and skin! Poor baby.   As is typical for me, I spend my days reading,  doing cross stitch,  cooking or baking, sewing, painting and dabbling in various other activities.  I've started sketching as I work on plans for a whole series of paintings on owls.  Here's a picture of my latest drawing. 




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I have one I want to do on canvas, but think I will keep sketching for a while until I feel confident about taking paint to canvas.  I really like this drawing, and am wanting to do a series on watercolor paper in either pencil or watercolors.  We'll see.  In any case, I continue to enjoy piddling around with paints. A friend recently commented that if I keep this up,  my home will look like a gallery and I can start charging for people to come in to see everything.  I grinned.....I like the idea of having my artistic efforts surrounding me in every room.

My friend, Puri, called a couple of weeks ago to tell me that her husband, Eddie, had died.  When they discovered the lung cancer, it was already at stage 4.  He died within weeks of having been diagnosed.  Puri and I shared lunch yesterday.  She is running on auto pilot just now, which is quite normal.  Her heart will allow for deeper grieving when she is ready.   Eddie was the friend with whom I had had to part ways because I just got sick and tired of being told I was going to go to hell because my views were different from his.  Fundamentalists make for difficult friends unless one shares the same views with them.  Most can't seem to make room for beliefs that don't reflect their own.  Oh well........

I've been trying some new recipes.  Some have been good, a few have been terrible, but none have made it to 4 stars on my list of repeats so far.  And, I've had to take some off the list completely because of the expense involved in making them.  There was one recipe for a baked potato soup that I thought sounded wonderful.  Besides the potatoes, the recipe called for onion, bacon, sour cream and half-n-half.   It was the cost of the sour cream and half-n-half that put a halt to my making the soup.  I was shocked that an 8 ounce container of sour cream was over $5!  Does it cost that much in the States, Canada or Australia?   I never remember it being that expensive before!  But, it is imported from the States, and somebody's got to pay for all those transport and import charges.  Yikes!

Besides having problems with the Internet, I've not written in Livejournal for a while because I've not known how to respond to the feelings I've been having with regard to what has been happening on Livejournal.   Sometimes I feel like I'm a passenger on the Titanic and don't jump into one of the lifeboats because I keep hoping the damn ship will just keep floating.  And just when I'm about ready to jump,  along come a couple of my favorite contributors with lovely entries, and my hope is rekindled.  So.....for now at least.......I will just hold on and watch to see how the water is rising before making any decisions.

I've had an idea for a new book.....one on "Eldering".  I think it's a smashing idea, but I already have three books sitting on my desk waiting for editing.  Two are done, and all they need is the editing.   I don't know for sure why I drag my feet on these, but I do know that I have almost all but lost interest in them at this point.  So.....perhaps I will work on this new idea....at least for a while....and see where it takes me.

That part time job with my son has not yet materialized.  He has more work he needs to do on developing the software before I can begin doing entries.  In the meantime,  I just keep on with my daily life and try not to think too much about this job.  It's only for ten hours a week, but that extra income would sure come in handy.

Abelle continues to be a rock of tranquility in my life as she keeps my home clean and my laundry done with her quiet efficiency.  Mark, her son, continues to work outside in the yard.  This rainy season makes the grass and weeds grow so quickly that he can hardly keep up.  And, now that his father, Victor, is working for me about two days a week,  there seems to be someone here working at something just about every day during the week.  But, they go about their business, and we seem to chat only enough to be sure that we are all on the same page.  It makes for a very soothing atmosphere around here.

I still see David and Maria once or twice a week;  I visit them just before I go to the pool across the road from their shop.  I'll be going later this afternoon.  This seems to be one of the few recent days when it just may not rain.  We had rain last night, but the sun is shining this morning.  The rainy season here seems to be like that.  We get lots of rain and thunder storms at night, with days that are either overcast or sunny.  Occasionally we get rainy days when I just stay in and don't even think about leaving the house.  Today is not one of them......and I'm grateful for that.  I feel like a swim would be quite nice today.

So....no earth shattering news.  Live seems to hum (or hobble) along each day as I seek to make those days feel meaningful and full.  Sometimes it's an effort and all I want to do is either read or nap.  I've been reading books so fast that I often run out of new material.  Thanks to second hand bookstores at the malls,  I can keep myself in books to read much of the time for very little cost.  And the man who runs the used bookstore at SM Mall knows that I will be in on the first Sunday following "pay day", so he usually has a stack of books waiting for me to look over.  He knows what I like to read.......or at least what I like to read from what is available.  I read lots of books that have dragons and wizzards in them!  :o)

When I am in a good space, I do see all the blessings that are in my life, and I am grateful.  May you have many blessings in your life as well.

An Evolving Interspiritual Solitary




Angel
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A New Painting

It is all blessing


Dear Ones,

This computer is giving me lots of trouble..... more every day, it seems.  My son is shipping a "BB Box" next week which includes a new computer for me.  It will take three months for it to get here, so I'm praying this little laptop lasts until the new one arrives.  In any case, I think this entry will be short.  But I did want to share my owl painting with you.......



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Doing this painting has inspired me to do more art with owls.  I want to try my hand at pen and ink next.  I love working with acrylics, but I think the next couple of owls I want to do will work better with my using a different medium.  I will also be working on my next painting on canvas.....a water scene.

I had thought I would hang my owl collection in my bedroom, seeing they are nocturnal creatures, but then I wonder if they would go best in my study...... as representatives of Wisdom.......hum.....must give that more thought.

Life is sort of going like a car with some sludge in the exhaust these days: brownouts every other evening for four or five hours;  no boats running to the pier in Lapu Lapu that I use;  my computer acting up;  Internet spotty.  Life in a Third World country can be quite spotty sometimes.

Things are getting rough with this computer.....so I'll close this post and hope I can get it to actually show up.

May We All Be Abundantly Blessed,

An Evolving Interspiritual Solitary

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